For the last few months, I have felt as though the Lord has been leading me to reconnect with a girl I used to work with about three years ago. Since I started college, I have actually been distancing myself from a lot of old work colleagues because their beliefs and values are different to mine and when we have had spiritual conversations, I have found myself getting a bit confused because my foundations were not strong and I think I had a warped perception of some doctrine.
Anyway, only a few weeks ago in prayer one morning, I suddenly felt this overwhelming burden for this girl and I felt as though the Lord wanted me to buy her a children’s DVD called “God made you so special”. I wrestled with the idea initially, thinking about how I could use the money more wisely and also, being a children’s cartoon movie, I was unsure how useful it would be or what she would think. After all my internal debating, I went ahead and bought the DVD, drove to her house and left it on her doorstep with a note saying I would love to catch up.
To be honest, I didn’t really feel much like catching up though because this girl is so much into new age stuff and it really grieves me...so it was a declaration in faith. Anyway, for the next couple of weeks we played phone hockey and kept missing each other’s calls. After we arranged a time for lunch, we had to reschedule a few times. She said she also wanted another workmate to come. I sort of got the impression she was a bit fearful of meeting with me alone because she knows I am at Bible college. Anyway, we finally managed to arrange at a set time – yesterday lunch time with our other friend, and my baby niece Angelina.
So Angelina and I parked up the top of Mount St, walked down the huge hill and got there half an hour early, so we just sang in tongues waiting. When this other friend walked in, she immediately fell in love with Angelina and asked to have a hold. Then I proceeded in telling her all about what a miracle she was and how my sister had had numerous miscarriages and how if I wasn’t at Bible college I didn’t believe she would be alive today. I also told her how God had spoken to me in a dream and told me to do Bible college.
To my surprise, Bev was actually really receptive of all that I said and it’s like I just had this boldness in talking about God. She said she wasn’t “religious at all”, but that her daughter has recently gotten involved in a Baptist church and how she had heard of an Indian guy who had been healed and who God had also spoken to in a dream and later become a devout Christian. Praise God He has obviously been planting lots of seeds in her life!!!
Then Dee, the one I’ve been praying for so much, came along and I repeated my testimony about Angelina. Both asked me quite a few questions and it didn’t seem weird or uncomfortable at all. Neither could get over how sweet and quiet and beautiful Angelina is. I said it was because she is a gift from God. In contrast, Bev said her children all screamed and cried all the time and often vomited up their food because they suffered from reflux (a condition of the gut where the valve doesn’t work properly). She said that in the few times she ducked out to the shops, it was a nightmare and so the idea of bringing them to a restaurant was not even a consideration. She said she was so sleep deprived and old ladies kept giving her unwanted advice and she felt like bashing them all up. She also said Angelina was so pretty and delicate, unlike her children who were rolls of fat and odd-shaped. I never realised some mothers had it so hard and it made me realize how blessed I am to be part of such a precious child’s life.
Dee said she hadn’t watched the DVD yet, but was touched by the fact that I had given it to her.
Anyway, after about an hour, we all went our own separate ways. I didn’t lead either of them to Christ, but I felt a sense of satisfaction that God had used me to sow some seeds into their lives and I had obeyed His leading. I have never felt at ease sharing my faith with unbelievers, yet our conversation yesterday seemed so natural and not weird or uncomfortable in any way. In fact, that was by far the best time I have ever had with them. I wish so much in my heart that I could show them the way to Jesus, to peace, healing and wholeness. I guess I just have to pray and intercede for them and wait to see what the Holy Spirit wants me to do next.
I only have this weekend left of my holidays, then it is back into term four of Bible college. Agggghhh, so much more i want to do!