Am totally stuffed. At 6:30am, mum and i left home to drive all the way up to Julz's house where we met yet another removal van man from a different company to what we used a couple of weeks ago, to move the rest of Julz's stuff. She hadn't even packed a lot of the stuff, so we frantically had to empty the cupboards and shelves. Grunde was there, trying to scam what he could. All her bf's are total jerks. This one is not even the father of her baby - uuurgh...
Anyway, Julz just has so much stuff it's not funny. Last time we moved half of her stuff, it cost mum $635 for four hours worth of work. This time it cost me $500 for three hours of work. Julz just has no money left to pay for things like this, so mum and i have to wear it. It's made me feel ill at times just thinking about the extreme waste of money. One day, she will be completely transformed. Her mind will be renewed and we'll all have peace of mind. I can't wait for that day.
Last Thursday, i met with Ps Barbara to tell her all that concerns me. She came from an absolutely horrific background, so i knew she would understand. Other people just have no idea. She told me to find a unit and move out of the situation, because it's only when i make a clear break that i can help Julz and mum properly. Ps Barbara said that she used to cry every time someone told her to give her testimony and that was a clear sign she was not out of it entirely. She said something really important that really hit me hard - i can definitely see the reality of it.
She said that while i keep cleaning up after Julz and remaining quiet every time she doesn't tell the truth, that i am actually supporting her bad habits, encouraging her to maintain them and preventing her from realising that she needs help in getting her life straightened out. The devil is the father of all lies and i am giving the devil ground by not speaking up. She said i need to confront her and tell her that what she is doing is not right (i.e. lying about the father and all...).
Oh well, i have started looking for a new home though. Josie had a vision of it. Funny how things ahead of us are all known already by God.
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